super 'geng' God..

I'm the type of person that always misunderstanding God..This afternoon I received a call from the zhong qiu nite decoration leader..It recall me back to our last year CF Christmas Nite..At that period I was so frustrated for the decoration thing..I expect a christmas feeling decoration..But the outcome was not as i expected..it was a failure in my eye..and i so disappointed and told ar Lia that I will never in-charge decoration anymore..though i hv receive some positive comments about the decoration but it dint work as an encouragement to me..coz i thought they just want to comfort me and they dint know that it will be much more better if i plan well, if I can..etc..and I thought that God was not with me, that's why it turn up like this..izzit because my spiritual life so bad, dint pray earnestly or...I question Him for some period..After the call..I can sure that He was with me and He also did His part..He provided all the equipment that needed, wisdom to hang the snow flake, helpers..etc..Never thought that the way we hang the snow flake will impact someone that they ask us how to do it..How we get the equipment..as I found out these, I just want to say sorry and thank you..i paid so much attention on the outcome but never appreciate the process, the wisdom..that He had gave..Seriously,our God is the genius of genius..so 'geng' !.. King Solomon is the acknowledged wise man..God was the one who gave him wisdom..then God must be much more and more wiser than King Solomon..wow..cant imagine..

Lord, You are so cute !

Thank God, things that I dare not face, pretending..finally it over..After taking the first step, I found out that it is not as hard as I thought..But I hope no more this kind of thing happen again..haha..For this moment, I just want to thank God for this brother..and God is so cute, as we surrender everything to Him, He will take care of it..This morning as I look at the mirror..I saw something different..Because I laugh at the front of mirror by myself..Not because I'm crazy just because I found out that I have no angry with someone..Another brother in Christ that I thought I will never forgive..Though till today he dint say sorry about what has been happen..or maybe not even feel sorry about that..but amazingly there is no more anger in me..I dont know whether i really and truly forgive..but at least at this moment I decide to take the initiative to smile with him as we meet..As I found out that, I just wanna shout out in front of mirror that Lord, You are so cute! Without God's working, this matter is impossible..So good, can live without 'burden'..hee..

What will You do if You are in my place?

Recall back the question that grandpa asked in the first day of camp..If one day Jesus ask you : what do u think I am?..For this moment, Jesus is the one who knows everything, our past and also future. When making decision, I like to ask Jesus : What will You do if You are in my place?..will He say hold on,now is not the right time..or will He say just do it, the rest I will take care of it? Or will He say..so many posibilities?! But for sure, He will never say no need to face it, the problem will automatic be solved..Is the decision that I make same with Him if He is in my place? 


I thank God for this brother who use all his time, heart and strength to care about me. At once I was touched. However after sometime I found that I can't deceive myself. He deserve a better girl. How could I say tell this to this lovely brother without hurting him? I cannot be so selfish and continue give him false hope. Lord, teach me. 


At this point, I can only fully surrender to Him..May His will be done and not my will..

"For I know the plans I have for you",declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11.

Fathers..

Just finish watching a cantonese series drama-Fathers & Sons..It is a simple drama but i was so tourched by the love of the fathers towards their children. It remind me that in life there might have something that fathers have done for me secretly..but I never notice it..Things around me are too attractive and time past so fast ..and i just forget to stop for a moment just to say how much i appreciate and thank you..How great is our father's love..After camp i'm struggling to make a decision..I not sure whether i do it in the right time or right way..too much to consider..what will happen after i tell him..I just know if I continue to run away, there will be someone hurting..and I feel so bad about this..how to do it without hurting him and still remain as good friend? As I think about tomorrow, thing that I have to do..so uneasy..

Father,whatever consequences..may it in Your control..long to have a big hug and tell me that be courage, daughter..

Dear Lord..miss sis again..

Lord, so miss ar Lia .yearning the past..thank you for placing such a beautiful sis..i learn so much from her..I know if she is around campus..more juniors will be bless by her..Lord, take care of her, I know u will, rite? Give me the strength to continue the journey, may i do everything with sincere heart and with love.. so miss the time when we hang around, share to each other..

National Bridge Model Competition

Hmm..finally its over..joining the national bridge model competition two months ago..Our group (five of us) manage to enter second stage of the competition.Thus this two weeks plus we busy to prepare two model bridge,poster, movie presentation and landscape. During the preparation it was a tough time for me. Spend most of our time in doing the bridge model, sleep at very late night, skip lectures. Due to all of us have high demand in this competition, we re-do the bridge things again and again. Sometime i was so frustrated about the re-do things. Well, we manage to finish our stuff at the eleventh hour before we depart from our campus to Johor UTM. It was a 2days event on Tuesday and Wednesday.We depart by Monday 7am. Ha, we dint sleep on sunday nite..coz we only manage to finish all things at about 5am..hence, almost of the whole journey we sleep in bus. Haha..People like me, a bit tall..will suffer in the bus..We reach UTM at about 5pm..After that we direct went to the hall and start to arrange our landscape, poster....However, we found out that our landscape that Gavin did was too long..cant put on the table that they hv prepare for us. Due to gavin busy to improve our bridge structure so i was called by one of my group member to do another new landscape. Can feel that she put so high expectation on me again as she ask me not to worried about the material that i need. My job was to think and to decorate it nicely..so stress..last minutes what can i do..haha..thanks to my dear heavenly father..Idea just pop out one by one as i ask Him during the preparation.. haha..that night all of us only manage to sleep one hour coz busy to do the landscape..On the first day of the competition, each group have to go on the stage to present the bridge model..Before two hours of our turn to present,group members decide me to present it on stage..o..man..what a good surprise for me..even in school, i have to use at least a night to prepare..stress again..Thank God, i have present it camly and confidently..Group members so surprise and they thought that i was so enjoy to talk on the stage..haha..at that moment i just pretend la..just thought that He is with me and dint think for other things..Our bridge can support 5kg with only 0.79mm deflection, the weight of our bridge is 115gram..it was a good news to us as our deflection is d smallest among all. And our bridge weight is d fourth or fifth lightess. It was a hope for all of us..On the second day of competiton we wake up by 5am just to improve our landscape. It was because there will be 5 judges to come over booth by booth to give mark for landscape, multimedia presentation, poster, buildable, creativity, bridge structure..I pray for everything besides the justice of competition. Most of the UTM and Inti college breaks the rules..and it was so overt..a lot of participant was so angry with it, some of them even went to the "transfomer bridges" booth to challenge the ppl on the first day. One of the group even ask judge about that on second day. But the judge just smile and dint give any comment..As i knew they have break the rules on d first day,i thought the judge will take some action for the "transformer bridge",so i just concentrate to do my thing and dint give any respond to my coursemate as  they discuss about it..so sad..the judge did nothing..and all the transformer bridge won most of the prize..we lose..It was so easy to win as long as we dare to break the rules..Seriously,if have to use such way to win the prize, i rather choose to lose than win. I have exprience so much of His goodness along the whole process of our bridge preparation and competition.No regret to join the competition at least one of my wish have come true which is go johor..Hmm..have to back to normal life la..a lot of things..test, design, assignment are waving with me..

My dearest sis in christ..

so sad..nvr thought i so miss this sis so much until i saw her in convo..after she move her stuff bec to kluang..i cried for nights..during holiday, i try to put attention in other things..stop my mind to think that she is no longer around when i need some one to share..hv no more friend that i can talk to..try to make used that we can communicate thru email.sms..phone call..i thought i hv accept this fact..time past so fast especially during happy moment..Thank God that I hv 1 day to accompay her and her family..i should grateful for it..just cant stop crying as she left..cant control my tear..a bit doubt whether go singapore in dec..scare i will cry again when i left..haiz..really no mood to do anything..but my bridge cant wait ady..Lord, grant me the strength to continue my work..