Lord, i just cant forgive it, every words he had said. Maybe i just refuse to do it because it might protect myself in future, sorry for not trusting you. Too much to doubt, i have lost my confident in him, lost my confident in this relationship. Lord, the only way i can do is to forgive, but i just cant..really hurt.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Monday, October 6, 2008
Dear Lord
Dear dad:
Was having a serious talk after dinner, this time is about family background. To him, family background play a big role in relationship, to be honest, me too worry about that. I try to do something to works out on this matter. But he always finding something to escape it instead finding way to solve, not to be courage enough to face the circumstances. I dont think i can able with this man for whole life if he continue behave like this. In another word, he is an unsteady man, double minded man. Maybe before the talk, i have really commit to you, that's why i dint cry for this. Just fully surrender to God, i hope i will continue this faith, fully trust in Him. Seriously it is very hard. We are just good in everything, besides family background, common interest. It this possible to find a perfect partner without work hard for that? I really dont know the answer, and i dont think it is possible. Anyway, this time i want just want to rest till i get the answer from God. I will not to continue until i get further notification. To a critical period, i was hurt by his word, he told me that his parent not really supportive in this relationship. I really care for the family blessing in relationship. To my selfishness, if i really get the confimation in this relationship, i think i will change my thought. I will not do anything for this relationship. Maybe just because the hurt or the pride? Now we are in cooling down state, praying For God's peace if it is His will for us to be together.
Was having a serious talk after dinner, this time is about family background. To him, family background play a big role in relationship, to be honest, me too worry about that. I try to do something to works out on this matter. But he always finding something to escape it instead finding way to solve, not to be courage enough to face the circumstances. I dont think i can able with this man for whole life if he continue behave like this. In another word, he is an unsteady man, double minded man. Maybe before the talk, i have really commit to you, that's why i dint cry for this. Just fully surrender to God, i hope i will continue this faith, fully trust in Him. Seriously it is very hard. We are just good in everything, besides family background, common interest. It this possible to find a perfect partner without work hard for that? I really dont know the answer, and i dont think it is possible. Anyway, this time i want just want to rest till i get the answer from God. I will not to continue until i get further notification. To a critical period, i was hurt by his word, he told me that his parent not really supportive in this relationship. I really care for the family blessing in relationship. To my selfishness, if i really get the confimation in this relationship, i think i will change my thought. I will not do anything for this relationship. Maybe just because the hurt or the pride? Now we are in cooling down state, praying For God's peace if it is His will for us to be together.
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