I can expect good thing because Jesus is my righteousness :)

In the midst of curiosity and nervous. I really need a break. I can sense my palm and feet are sweating heavily. Whenever I came across this situation, the best thing to do is to pause everything and just focus on how much Jesus loves me. 

After taking almost two months of preparation, finally the day has come. Though based on the mathematics probability calculation, I should roughly know the figure. This is my first project ever since I "retired" as an engineer. The three God beloved children first project toward internet marketing world. I knew what we can do is very limited, there are so much factors which is out of control and we really need to depend on God.

Daddy, I dare not trust the sweetest frame of mathematics.I know You will surely bless us. Your gift is on the way..in the atmosphere of curiosity before open the gift.If possible, Jesus..I love to ask for 7 figures. 

I pray my next post will able to testify Your goodness and unceasing supply regardless how many figure we get. Thank you Jesus, finally my sweating stop. I pass the whole project unto Your hand. You are the real boss of whole project. Now we shall take a break and celebrate!!

Grace, what have you done?

Murdered for me on that cross

Accused in absence of wrong

My sin washed away in your blood

Too much to make sense of it all

I know that your love breaks my fall

The scandal of grace, you died in my place

So my soul will live

Chorus:

Oh to be like you

(To) Give all I have just to know you

Jesus, there's no one besides you

Forever the hope in my heart

Death, where is your sting?

Your power is as dead as my sin

The cross has taught me to live

In mercy, my heart now to sing

The day and it's trouble shall come

I know that your strength is enough

The scandal of grace, you died in my place

So my soul will live

"The scandal of grace, You died in my place". How my dear Jesus loves me. He loves me so much. His love is beyond word can describe, love as high from the earth to heaven, as far as east to west. Jesus is my righteousness. That is the core reason I can expect good things from God :)

7 “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.8 For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.

9 “Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10 Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 11 If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! 12 So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.   -- Quoted from Matthew 7: 7-12

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Unceasingly Supply

After 4 years, soon my dream shall come true. Thank God for His unceasingly supply in every area of my life. When I rest He work. My harvests are not depend on my hard works or good performance. It is all  about God. Look forward March, time to step out from my comfort zone and to receive more from God.

Thank God for giving me wisdom, tonne of ideas and unity in between sibling to achieve this dream. I'm gifted by God  and with God, nothing is impossible or too hard for Him. 

Lord, thank you for trusting me by blessing me to take care Your finance. Grant me wisdom to take care of it. 

The right captain

Lord, is another sleepless night. I know being an influential person in northern Lysaght is something i hope for all these while. However the expectation is really out out my expectation. It far beyond than I expect. Recently more and more distributors show their support to us. I know it is something to be glad about but in the same time it really stress me out. 

Everyone expect me to has this ability to take all the lead in the market, to use the technical knowledge as the tools to win most of the projects and to convert competitor's specification to my specification. Hello!! I'm not a magician neither a  right captain who is able to bring more sales for their company. 

I don't know how to do it and I lost my direction. Teach me and guide me. I know in You I can do all things. Please grant me the peace and faith to carry on. Lord, I want to experience of all the great things and promises that You have already plan for me. And from tonight onwards, I will have innumerous of good sleeps. Nothing will able to stop me from resting in You. The more I rest, the more of You taking over the whole ship. In Jesus' name, Amen !

Love that lead me to thirst for him more

Dear Lord thank you for loving me even i failed to live up to Your standard. You will never love me more just because i spend time with you neither do you love me less just because i skip the quite time. It is because Your love are always overflow, no end, and limitless in whatever circumstances. This same unconditional and abundant love that lead me thirst for You and Your everything.

How i wish to worship You until the dawn. Telling the world that the all powerful, all glorious God is my heavenly father and He is so love in me.

Lord I'm amazed

Noah's ark, Ma Wan Island, HK

I think life is not easy but it will be wonderful if we knew that how much He loves us. Tomorrow will be a stressful day to me if I don't know about Jesus' love. I thank God for always being the one who I can look for when I need. It's His love grant me from an anxious Sabbath to a restful day. 

Is a wonderful thing to find out how much Jesus' love me. He cares about every single details in my life, my feeling, my thought, my needs, my success even my friends. How deep and how wide is His love for me. And Lord, I'm amazed by You. The King of kings sing all around me, dance over me. 

It is because His love and cares that give me this confident by fully surrender tomorrow meeting to my heavenly daddy. He cares what I cares. Hence I have the confident to expect tomorrow meeting will only benefit me in regardless what is the outcome. Whatever circumstances, Lord teach me to stand on Your word and promises only. Lord, as You said You are the way, the truth and the life. And the truth shall set me free. The truth is You love me and this shall set me free from stress, restless, anxious, every wicked scheme and lies of Satan. 

Lord, as long as You are with me, I am a successful person. It is regardless my position, my academic qualification, my performance and any poison injected by the wicked person to management. Lord, I thank you success is not about how good I'm but how powerful is Your word. As I'm the heir of Abraham, the same success of life that You gave to Joseph will manifested in my life as well. 

I believe tomorrow night I will have the new ingredient to blog about how You bring me through the day :)

Thank for this agape love, You never stop to love me even though I fall.

The intimate relationship save me

After two months of cleaning and painting, this is my first time doing quite time with God in this house. Standing at balcony, enjoying the seaview, sunshine and breezing , I know this is something I desires for all these while. But am I happy with all these? All of sudden, I wonder. My heart is heavy.

Maybe this is due to my career. Frankly speaking, I'm tired and weary with all these wolfs. Is this what I need to encounter if I choose to stay in sales line? or is it because the country I live in? Even the politicians doing the same thing. I wonder is there any future in Malaysia if we continue tend to be ignorant. Rise up, Malaysian!!

I was told construction field in Malaysia is always "dirty". I thought I'm ready and bold enough to face it. But it seem like I over confident. Human will tend to fall when he/she lost the intimacy with God. From disagree to compromise and then give in. I think I in the boundary between compromise and give in. 

Sometime I wonder if I give in, maybe I will able to own another house and car. No need to struggle so much. But can I sleep in peace? Is Jesus is more precious than those things? Maybe this is the thing that hold me back. Maybe...But how long does this fact able to hold me? 

Surely, only when my relationship with God is intimate. Thank God today scripture, Psalm 103.

¹ Praise the LORD, my soul;    

all my inmost being, praise his holy name.

 ² Praise the LORD, my soul,    

and forget not all his benefits—

 ³ who forgives all your sins   

 and heals all your diseases, 

⁴ who redeems your life from the pit    

and crowns you with love and compassion, 

⁵ who satisfies your desires with good things 

   so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.

 ⁶ The LORD works righteousness 

   and justice for all the oppressed.

 ⁷ He made known his ways to Moses,    

his deeds to the people of Israel:

 ⁸ The LORD is compassionate and gracious,   

 slow to anger, abounding in love. 

⁹ He will not always accuse,    

nor will he harbor his anger forever; 

¹⁰ he does not treat us as our sins deserve    

or repay us according to our iniquities.

 ¹¹ For as high as the heavens are above the earth,    

so great is his love for those who fear him; 

¹² as far as the east is from the west, 

   so far has he removed our transgressions from us.

 ¹³ As a father has compassion on his children,    

so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him;

 ¹⁴ for he knows how we are formed,   

 he remembers that we are dust. 

¹⁵ The life of mortals is like grass,   

they flourish like a flower of the field; 

¹⁶ the wind blows over it and it is gone,   

 and its place remembers it no more.

 ¹⁷ But from everlasting to everlasting   

 the LORD’s love is with those who fear him,    

and his righteousness with their children’s children—

 ¹⁸ with those who keep his covenant 

   and remember to obey his precepts.

 ¹⁹ The LORD has established his throne in heaven, 

   and his kingdom rules over all.

 ²⁰ Praise the LORD, you his angels,    

you mighty ones who do his bidding,    

who obey his word.

 ²¹ Praise the LORD, all his heavenly hosts,    

you his servants who do his will. 

²² Praise the LORD, all his works 

   everywhere in his dominion.

   Praise the LORD, my soul.

The Lord's love is with those who fear Him, He who satisfies my desires with good things. His love grant me the confidence to live in His way. His love ensure me that He will take care all my needs and desires. My second house shall not come by satanic ways but His blessing.

I guess knowing His love and experiencing His love is totally a different thingy. The intimacy with God is the only way to experiencing His love.

not by satanic way !

" No one will ever satisfied with his income". and then he continue with these statements.- even if you work in corporate world, you can still have your own business. If you asking about beneficial interest, it is depend on how you see the thing. For example, I can own a company and fully run by my wife. I can become the one at the back stage and everything still is in my control. Sometime, you don't need to let your boss know everything.

I knew he is starring at me, observing my respond toward those statement. He was hinting me. Scary. How well can I hide in front of the "old fox"? He was testing whether we are in the same direction. In order to save myself, I give him a positive respond. 

After Joyce tender, I feel so lonely. She is the only person I can trust to. I salute her courage. She refuse  to walk the same direction with the "old fox". I guess he had gave her more than three times changes. And this is her ending. "Old fox" denied all her hard work in front of Vice President. He never gave her the changes to perform in the first place. Is VP blind as well? He knew this "old fox" did bribe, but somehow or rather he close his eye. Is he one of "old fox" new company partner? I wonder. 

Since when he became someone who are more powerful than God? Tan Sze-Lyn!! Wake up! This is a trick! You shouldn't be discourage or fearful. God is in front of you. He cares your career and financial. Indeed He is the provider of everything I need and He knew my desires. God is going to bless my financial. I will be rich by godly ways, effortless, and not by manipulating, human efforts, or satanic ways! Amen!

worry-free

²⁸ “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. ²⁹ Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. ³⁰For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”   Matthew 11:28-30

It always warm my heart when I read this. Again, it reminds me that Jesus cares. He cares all my struggles, difficulties and worries. Not only cares, He feels the same as I am. 

Who am I ? What so special about me? That He, the King of Kings would spend His precious time to listen, to care and to comfort me.

I was truly weary and burden for the past few weeks, maybe more than that...and I don't even want to think or spend a little bit time to discuss with God. I know I should but I'm just too tired. Anyway, I should not use tired as an excuse. 

The only time I pray is when I heading to office every morning. And I just took less than 10 minutes each time. Sometime less. Well, a simple prayer work. He do listen and He answered! You have touch my heart, Lord.

Thanks Lord, In You I shall rest even there are many issue/decision yet to be solved and make. Not only so, as You promise. all my burdens will be taken well by You. The only thing I need to do is to rest, follow Your leading and flow with You. And I will find all things fall into place. Free from distress, worry and anxiety. 

Career 's T-Junction

All things work togther for our benefits. How wonderful and mighty is my God. Sometime it is hard to understand God's plan. But no matter what's the plan is, as long as He is the planner, somehow or rather the outcome will bring surprise and for sure it is benefial to His beloved child

Standing at the T-Junction, I have no idea which way should I turn to. Should I give up a stable good paid job and choose an unstable yet unlimited income? 

Working in Bluescope is a blessing of God. Especially in region office, where there are a lot of freedom and less office politic. Everyone lives like a family. I enjoy the working enviroment and challenge. In the past six months, I work closely with distributors, developer etc in order plant the seeds. And now i can see the harvest time is near. A lot of sizeable projects will be coming in. Though most of the time there are a lot of unforeseen problems pop out which drive me crazy, i learn a lot ! In the same time, i do learn lying without feeling guilty, giving complement in order to achive something, etc. So evil and fake !! I guess soon or later, i will master "dai chi", pushing all my wrong doing and responsibility to others. This is so not of my initial desires when I step in working life. I guess this is a transition period and I need more wisdom instead of practicing evil ways to solve the problems.

I clearly know that I will not stay long in this company. Not because of paid, politic or stress. It is because i never plan to be an emplyee forever. Accept Jack's offer will lead me from employee to an employer. Converting my responsibility and satisfaction to my own business rather to a company. I clearly know what I want, but I'm scared.

Okay, Tan Sze-Lyn, Jesus is with you ! He loves you. What you need to do is courage and step out from this comfort zone. He holds the future. 

The Lord my God hold my future. But Lord, please give me understanding and wisdom. When should I throw the letter? 2 months or 3 months later? I need to throw on the right timing. 

No matter what, before i left, i shall fight for the best for this company. Be the good and top sales engineer in whole region.

In You Lord, nothing is impossible. My capable of being a top sales engineer is from You, not me.

honesty create more problems?

Today I was told being too honest will bring a lot of trouble to people around you. In the past, i will definately diagree with it. But after a lot of things happen, i'm doubt with my initial believe. Sometime people have no choices but to lie. This is not true in Bible and also not something we learnt in school. However lie would eventually solve the problem and being honest will create more problem. instead Should i change myself to be more "flexi" so that i wont struggle so much? Someone told me as long as it is not beyond law, you can do anything in order to achive something....Should i change ? maybe im just tired to do thing differently with other. Should I make myself one of them? arghh!! I need wisdom.

Shelter of stressful

I guess stress is the most common element in life. It doesnt matter what is our role, be it a student, child, worker or even a king, it always come after us. No one love stress, including me. However everyone have to agree stress do bring a great impact to their life. It will either built us stronger or the other away round. I guess it is all depend on how we deal with this element.

I'm a kind of person who love to live in my own world when there is stress. Reading, chasing series, driving or sleeping are the ways for me to run away. But these never help to solve the problems. At last, I still need to encounter it. Just like this moment....

Thank God, for being the One I can turn to. You are always my shelter in times of hardship and stress. Lord, no matter how hard I try not to think about or facing it, the problems are still there. Everything are not in my control and I couldnt do anything on my side. I hate this situation. Only You Lord can solve it, You can change people mind, You are the source of wisdom, strength and miraculous. I have no idea what can I do besides surrender to You. 

Lord, I need rest and peace. I'm tired and weary. Grant me wisdom, favourism, strength and courage to carry on. I know all these are on the way. In You, I found victory over stress, victory over every problems....

I'm the righteousness of God in Christ. Hence all the good things will circular in my life.

I'm the beloved Child of God, cross is the demostration of His love. Surely I can fully truss Him and all my worries are His too.

Lord, thanks for Your unmerited favour and love. I know everything is in Your control and You will take care of it., because You love me.

I pray these in Jesus' name. Amen.

money change character

At once I was angry and shocked with bribery and corruption in my working place.The most shocking is management was the one who involved. It seem happen anywhere and it doesnt matter where I work. Sadly I have numb with it though it just my 18 months in working life.

Two days ago, Jk told me the "devils" had took over the company. To many people, this "devils" are angels. Once i was deceived by them too. Only those were in same department would know how wicked is them.

As along as it involved human and money, bribery and politic is a common thing to happen. I guess I should encounter these wisely rather than run away or being angry. 

Lord, I need wisdom to deal with these people and circumstances. Cover me with Your precious blood so that none of them would ever able to trap me in their wicked scheme. Lord, You are the maker of heaven and earth, source of all blessing, health and prosperity. Your grace and love have ensure me that my life is full with all Your blessing, health and prosperity. There will be no means for me to get prosperity by bribing. Thanks for this assurance. 

I pray this in Jesus' name. Amen !

business trip to klang valley day 2

It was good to stay at Empire Hotel though the lifts are suck. Planning to have a short christmas shopping, but we spent most the time for breakfast. Honestly, the breakfast not really good, no much choice if compared with concorde hotel. All of sudden, I missed Concorde. Will I choose to stay at Concrode on my next trip? I wonder. It is the competition between room interior design vs breakfast. Which will win my heart, xoxo..

Nice view and restaurant. Good atmosphere as well. But the foods are so so.

Walking around the shopping mall. Impressive christmas deco.

Overview taken from 3rd floor.

Lovely Christmas Tree.

After a quick christmas shopping, we make a move to The Loaf. The best bakery to me in Malaysia. So far there are only three franchise in Malaysia. The original one is in Pulau Langkawi. Another one is in Pavillion, KL. This is the new one. Breads were too nice and we forgot to take picture of it. Nothing much in Empire, besides spending.

Back to room at 11am, planning to go Pulau Pangkor or Melaka for lunch. But these two shiok sendiri sisters spent their hour in hotel for photos.

This is the only way to use smartphone for taking both of us together.

Good shot man !

yay, my turn! my turn !

Trying to act cute, but apparently i'm no longer fit in this category

How about acting mature? hee..

This girl pretending sleeping. well this not a good post.

Trying to be a spider woman? funny..cheers to ss sisters

Well, I would prefer act cool rather than a comedy

My forehead acnes are completely heal ! Praise the Lord !

Too ss, and we forgot to google for pulau pangkor and too full for lunch at Melaka. Plus abit tired, hence we cancel our trip. Will do it for our next trip, definately.

business trip to klang valley day 1

 A business trip to KL. Intially it was a one day trip. However due to last minute thingy, all KL to penang flight were sold out, besides first class ticket. But I was happy to drive, since I need to carry a lot of stuff from HQ plus I can travel with sis as she having uni break now.

It was a rushing day though we leave penang at 7.30pm. We arrived at Empire Hotel at about 11pm however receptionist will only allow us to check in at 2pm. Hence, I went to Shah Alam Office to pass out my old laptop for data tranfering. Next we move to Empire Hotel, drop off nikki. Skip my lunch as I having a training at Kapar, somewhere in Setia Alam. This place is an industrial area. I couldnt find the factory and I was late. In between, a malay woman knock my car. I just cant help myself and shout to God's help. Finally, I found BSM. Too bad, the training just finished. The only thing i needs was miracle. Pray was my only thing i can do. Sheila, HR Manager was there, she asked me to join for next training, which fall on following week. My respond was cannot be. I told her manager will kill me if i miss it. She laughed and tried her best to talk with the trainer. Thank God, trainer *young and charm guy willing to stay back. After the training, I have to rush to HQ for a discussion and get my new laptop etc. Finally I can back to hotel at the time of 7pm for a 15minutes rest. Following program was steambot dinner with Jinny, Aaron and James. Crazy but fruitful day. Thanks Lord.

Well, this was my first time at Empire Hotel. The interior design is much better than concorde hotel. More stylist and spacious. Of course this has to be apple to apple comparion. What I mean is standard room. Concorde Premium room are still the best one by far.

A piece of art at the door side

Lovely wardobe

Stylist work desk

about 1.5m wide corridor to bed. Along the way  is bathroom

No bathtub, just shower. But I guess most asian are used with shower

A simply shot. Just to show how artistic photography am I..haha..

This is our God

 This song speak out who my God is.

The God who freely give all He has and guess what ?!

He is my God.

Lord, thank you for giving me the opportunity to serve in Esteem.

To all the people I met, places I have been, sales which were closed,

I give thank !