In the silent night, I tend to think alot. This is the time my brain work. To think about past, present and future. This is the time i can be honest enough to tell God about my real feeling. I long to live for God. I long for freedom and dreams. I long to experience and embrace life. I long to have a life partner who i can share my life with. To be honest, I'm quite miss him. But i have to stop this feeling as this will hurt me more and more. I'm just not as cool as i thought. I'm just a normal girl, feeling sad and hurt too. However i just cant share my real feeling to anyone, even my close friend. I just cant trust anyone anymore. I wish to share, but each time i will turn out as a super woman, bringing encouragement to them instead of letting them encourage me.
Lord, save me. You are the only friend i can trust to. I just feel like crying but i couldn't cry out. Is this because i have burried my feeling underneath right after everything? What happen to me?
