Meaningless

Lord, why am I so down? everything seem meaningless and I dont understand why it happens? Lord, save me. Grant me a good friend who we can spend our life together. Help me to forget and forgive previous relationship. It was a nightmare. Lord...i beg You..I thirst for Your love and presence, I need You so much so much...Feeling so hard to carry my life, found meaningless..Lord..lead me out from this valley..

A letter to my heavenly dad

Lord, you know me, you know i am crying silently,  you know the bitterness in my heart, you know my fears and worries, Lord, you will take care of it, izzit? Lord, why this happen in my life? was i make the mistake in the first place? or you actually allow it? Lord..i thought i have forgotten, numb..but still i can feel down and pain..this has make me loose faith towards friends and christian guy..everything just happen so sudden..Lord, what happen? Why? if you plan not to show me answer, then Lord, please heal me, bring me to another level of life, that i may have faith back towards christian guy..