Lord..do something

Lord,sometime I just too tired for my self-cheating. I know you love me, but I don't really believe that you love me as much as you love others. I try to keep reminding myself that You love me. And you love me more than anyone. Lord, can I just yield to you..I don't see this happen in my life. I don't feel it. I know I shouldn't judge Your love based on feeling, It should based on word. Can i just be a spoiled child once a while? You have been too quite for these few years. I just can't continue live with word only. do something Lord. I believe but help my unbelief.