Ar dear..

I love you. Before I met you, I find these 3 words is hard to say it out. Too cheezy, it does not fit my cool image. Haha..Joking..

Seriously, once I thought maybe I should just stay single as I hardly open my heart though I tried to. But it's just so hard. I guess maybe I was afraid of rejection and fear of being hurt. Even until today, besides Jesus & my family, I still can't believe that someone will just accept me as who I am really is. 

Still remember the first day of dating, I told you that I'm a bit "kayu" when come into relationship. I'm not able to tell those sweet words if you expecting this from me. But sometime later, you were surprise that I do know how to express my love towards you, not as "kayu" as you thought. Seriously, I too surprise with myself. Slowly I found out it is because you will never take advantage of my love. Instead, you always take the first step to show me how much you love me and cherish me. I found secure to be who I am in front of you. 

I know you always act that you hate certain food just because you knew that I love to eat especially when there is not enough for both. If there are more than one, you will make sure I get the best part.

When we are at the roadside or crossing the road, you will make sure I stay at the safer zone. 

All these little little things mean so much to me. 

Dear, thank you for loving me even though I'm a bit stubborn and want everything to do it in my way. Do pray for me to be a more submissive & wiser woman.

Sometime you are a bit bossy and command me to do a lot of things for you just because you do not know how to do it. Though I hate your bossy way,  and I still can't stop myself from doing it for you. And one day, I found out you were just acting all these while! Feel like want to "cekik" you but in the same time, I find out I can't. Because I can't stop myself to love you even when I'm angry.

I love you no matter how you look like. Even your body area grow larger. In my eye, you always my prince charming.  However, I'm more concern about your health. So do start to take holy communion more often. Also please drive safely and no speeding please. Whenever you tempt to speed, please do remember I'm here waiting for you. Do not take God's protection for granted.  I can't imagine my life without you. 

Ar dear, I'm blessed to have you as my husband. 

Love you always

Nichole