Bersih 3.0 - 428

428 is a historical day to Malaysian and also to myself. That very day is my first protest in life. Time is very precious to me. Those days I would rather spend time doing nothing than attending any political rally/protest. To me, only those have too much time will protest. 

I remember a poem with title" Malaysia, tanahair ku" in primary school, it describe the love of Malaysia by a poet. I don't understand what make the poet loves the country so much. I never love Malaysia. Simply because I do not feel belong to Malaysia. I believe most of Malaysian, especial Chinese has a dream of migrating to other country. I myself was the first one to raise hand when someone ask about this. Since I am a Malaysia ' second class ' citizen, why should I not migrate to other country as their second class citizen where they have better infrastructure, greener environment to live, better education and job opportunity than Malaysia?

When we were kids, Nikki and me always "cursing" Tunku Abdul Rahman, the Father of Malaysia. Why this Tunku so busybody, got nothing better to do is it?  Fight for independence?! Why people rejoice for this? What is the need to fight for independence? Is there any difference after independence? Maybe to some of the people it do but we don't see nor feel it. After all, it is not a bad idea to let the British people rules the country. 

After Bersih 3.0, I deeply understand the reason of people protest. It is not because they are too free or got nothing better to do. It is the love that make them stood up. Love of parent to their children. Our decision and act will directly affect our children. The future of a country represent the future of our next generation. No one love to see their children become slave of other nation. Only those who truly love the country will protect his people from all the harms. They will use all their strength and heart to rules the country. Just like how a husband protect his wife and his children. I think the very reason Tunku fight for independence was because our ancestors had seen how British people, the colonizer took advantage of this land.

Though we are now an independent nation but our government use all their way to rob his people. They make no different with colonizer. Corruption, unfair, dirty, undemocratic election, injustice and  people lose their ownership in this land. It happen openly! To me, Bersih rally is just another form of fighting independence. I salute those who actually sacrifice their life for this 'independence'.

I cried when I saw 15 polices beating a reporter, more than three polices beating up a surrendered protester and many more. It is a shame to tell my children that this is the country we belong to. Government use our tax to feed a group of barbarians.

Jesus loves me

Jesus loves me this I know

From the Bible tell me so

Little one to Him belong

They are weak but He is strong

Yes Jesus loves me

Yes Jesus loves me

Yes Jesus loves me

The Bible tell me so

That's my favourite song since I was a child and still my favourite song. Simple but it is so real.

Last Monday having a Penang food trip with a childhood friend, Felicia. We knew each other when we were 11. Well, 17 years old friend! Time flies !

While we were having chapati at little india, she share with me about her family problem. Both parent addicted in gambling, the only sister leave the home and hardly care about their parent. She has been struggle for years. Lately the only beloved grandma also passed away. Even though these happen since she was still a teenager, she never give up. She manage to complete her degree though at that point she facing financial crisis. I really salute her. 

During the dinner, one of our gang member, Jo told me there is a negative tumor in her mum stomach. Her mum might need to go through a high risk operation. Her mum might need to depend on machine after operation. This will cause her mum even more suffer than to die. One year ago, her dad just pass away. And now her mum. The only brother also addicted in gambling. He will only at home when he need money. Jo totally lost at this moment, the only thing she can do now is to buy whatever herba/ medicine which so called can heal cancer. 

At that moment, I'm grateful.

Dear Lord, grant me courage and wisdom to share Your love with them. Telling them You love them as much as You love me. Thank you for loving me and my family. 

Justice for All The story of Lim Guan Eng

That's Penang 4th Chief Minister, Lim Guan Eng, the man of God.  

I never been so proud to tell the world who my chief minister is and he is the first one. 

He is the only Penang chief minister who is dare to fight for his people. 

Thank God for a righteous, wise and capable CM.

What is 1 Malaysia really mean?

I'm always proud to spend my secondary school in a Kebangsaan Sekolah. In school, there was the only channel I able to make friends with Malay and Indian. They are not as "bad" as I thought when I was in chinese primary school. Some of them even became my good friends, we share, we laugh and we respect each other. 

I remember when my form teacher, who is a Malay pass away in an accident, we cried for days. We visited him when he was in ICU and we took the initiative to attend his funeral. We moan. Even now, some of us still feel the lost. And surprisingly is all my classmate were Chinese (majority) and Indian. No malays students! This is 1 Malaysia really mean. From this it prove that, only if we are willing to use our heart to know each other more, to respect each other, to understand and to accept the differences, races and religion can never be the wall to stop us from love and unity. 

My mum always said :" Not all the yellow skin (chinese) are good and not all the black ( non chinese ) are bad." I totally agree with this statement. And this statement only apply to my school friends where there was  no special treatment to any race. To those who I don't know, especially Malay, I always have negative perspective towards them. And the strange thing is I never have bad perspective toward other race, like Indian, Punjabis and etc. 

Later on I found out the main reason I don't like malay is because they are bumiputera. Due to bumiputera status, they have priority in many areas in Malaysia. One of it is Non-bumiputera has to study very very hard in order to get a place in public university. Government prepare a one year pre-university course (matrikulasi) for bumiputera, the syllabus is very slightly higher than SPM/O Level. Whereas non-bumiputera has to continue form six (A level). Pre-university is a passport to public university. Hence those who are from pre-university, they have the priority to get a place in public university first. After that then only for form six students. The worst thing is 90% quota of pre-university course seat is reserve for bumiputera. Scholarship also got bumiputera quota and it regardless on how good you score. You can only compete with your own race. You will not able to get scholarship even though you score better than bumiputera. 5-8% rebate on property for bumiputera, government projects only award to bumiputera company and many many more.

All these priorities are set by our "beloved" government ! These priorities are the element that break the unity secretly and indirectly. Non-bumiputera never want a better treatment from government, all we ask is a fair treatment. Just like Singapore government. Never judge base on colour but base on performance ! 

This is 1 Malaysia ? What a contradict slogan?! How can you call us your sibling when you actually treat us as "second class" citizen, a foreigner or a bastard ? 

Maybe this is time to change government ! Even US has black guy president, why can't we have chinese or indian or punjabis or other races as PM? We need a capable and righteous PM, not a slogan maker idiot !

Matthew 3: 1-12

The bread of Life

The Preaching of John the Baptist

1 Now in those days John the Baptist came, preaching in the wilderness of Judea, saying, 2"Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is at hand." 3 For this is the one referred to by Isaiah the prophet when he said, "THE VOICE OF ONE CRYING IN THE WILDERNESS, 'MAKE READY THE WAY OF THE LORD, MAKE HIS PATHS STRAIGHT !' " 4 Now John himself had a garment of camel's hair and a leather belt around his waist ; and his food was locusts and wild honey. 5 Then Jerusalem was going out to him, and all Judea and all the district around the Jordan ; 6 and they were being baptized by him in the Jordan River, as they confessed their sins. 7 But when he saw many of the Pharisees and Sadducees coming for baptism, he said to them, "You brood of vipers,who warned you to flee from the wrath to come ? 8 "Therefore bear fruit in keeping withrepentance ; 9 and do not suppose that you can say to yourselves, 'We have Abraham for our father '; for I say to you that from these stones God is able to raise up children to Abraham. 10"The axe is already laid at the root of the trees ; therefore every tree that does not bear good fruitis cut down and thrown into the fire. 11 "As for me, I baptize you with water for repentance, but He who is coming after me is mightier than I, and I am not fit to remove His sandals ; He will baptise you with the Holy Spirit and fire. 12 "His winnowing fork is in His hand, and He will thoroughly clear His threshing floor ; and He will gather His wheat into the barn, but He will burn up the chaff withunquenchable fire."

Summary

The first "Baptist" show in bible is at Matthew 3:1. Is Baptist a new ritual practice in New Testament? 

Refer to a few relevant contexts in New Testament , it shows that baptism did take place in Old testament. And from the finding, we can say Baptism = Circumcision. And we know that circumcision is actually a type of practise to represent the Covenant between God and Abraham. This means that once we were baptised via holy spirit and water, we do inherit the Covenant! The best contract in the world!  What a great news when I found out this. Every single word in Bible represent the promise and goodness of God. Lord, thanks for showing me this promise. 

Why the Gospels mention that John the baptist wearing camel's hair garment? Refer to 2 Kings 1:8 ,  this attire represent Elijah ( Malachi 4: 1-6), which shows the prophecy were fulfilled. But why John the Baptist denied himself as Elijah while actually Jesus said he is? Besides Jesus there too other verse in bible speaks that John the Baptist is the one who sent by God to prepare the hearts of men before Messiah. This is another long and deep discussion. Hmmm..


Any how, from the context again it confirm us the identity of Jesus. He is the long waited Messiah. My Saviour :)

The imperfect me loved by His prefect love

Bra-ra shi .....(Speak in tongue)..Nichole, the Lord said there are things deep in your heart that you yet to surrender to Him. Area that you do not allow Him to take care. I pray the Lord presence anointing in your life. Even you reject Him, the Lord said He still love you. .... This is the way He show His love to you. Stop to prove your ability, stop to be someone you are not, stop to revenge, stop struggling with yourself...surrender to Him, depend on Him and He will take care of it...

A pastor merely knows my name told me these during an altar call. Un-intentionally I was drag by a sister to  the altar call. That Sunday service my heart was numbed. I don't really feel the presence of Lord during praise and worship. Even so, He assured with me about His presence and love. 

Lord, thanks for loving me. I know you long to confirm with me about this love. I know it is You because only You know what I had been gone through. I wish I could surrender. I wish I can be like Nikki. I know you love me but I just could't control myself. Maybe I don't really understand/know about Your love enough. Lord, teach me. I want to live a life that acknowledge about Your love, a life that having an intimate relationship with You, a life that I can assure all my burdens & treasure unto Your hand, a life that hunger about Your words every second. 

Lord, I really don't know how to have a life like this. No one able to tell me how to do it. Only You, Lord. Show me Lord.

Lord, thank you for telling me that You still love me even though I fail.

The unknown feeling

Does she really recover from the injury or actually too numb with pain to cry out?
It has been kind of long time she never cry though she still feeling something.
The unknown feeling.
It seem like this feeling will follow her forever.

That injure has change her character.
No one knows the reason of the changes besides God and herself.
Thinking the change would make her stronger.
Does it really work?

Has she lost her DNA?
Or maybe she is just good in acting.
Just maybe..