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To live the fullness of live

Tuesday, May 26, 2020

Lord, how long more we can leave this world? How long more our heart will stop bleeding? All the pains, guilts, condemnations I surrender to you. Please give him a tight hug on behalf of us each & everyday. Please tell him soon we will meet again. Chow yee, 还记得吗?今年一月我们三个说过的,我们一起等那一天。Let not him wait too long. May his spirit & soul rejoice & forget all the past. Please grant us strength to continue the journey. Jesus come to give us life & life more abundantly. But the moment he leaves, life will never abundant to us. Please fix these. Whatever destructions has been cause by the evil one, Lord restore it. Including chow yee life & health. For You are the faithful God.

Thursday, May 21, 2020

The most cruel thing but the only thing I can do for you is handle your death certificate. The moment to pass down your mykard really tear down my heart into pieces. I dont blame you, it was not your fault. Indeed, Im proud of you for all these years. Fighting with God’s word. Yen remind me how you overcome it for the last 10 years. You very geng, the best fighter. We all were so ignorant, not knowing it was the spirits behind all these. Tortured & conned by them for so long.

Thank God you are in save arm. Can you hear me? We all miss you so much. No one can replace you, not even Benjamin. Because losing you & having him is two different thing. So if you hear me, lets pray that God accecerates the rapture time. You cant come to us, but we can come to you.

Lord, the only hope for this lost is rapture. May it take place by this year.

O death, where is your sting?
O grave, where is your victory?

Thursday, May 14, 2020

Hey, hows life there? I miss you so much. This will be the last time to wait for me a bit longer..i believe very soon we will meet again. When we meet, i promise i will never leave you. Whatever you want to do, whenever you want to go, i will be by your side. Maybe you dont even need this jie jie, but I dont care. My turn to protect you, your enemy is my enemy. Together 3 of us will take the revenge. Whatever you have suffer, all shall be pay back 7 times. Hug!!!!!! Miss you so so much.