Thanks for taking care of her

Sleepless night. 

After years of praying, finally grandma accepted Christ. She was unconscious due to extreme high sugar level since last Thursday and was sent to hospital on Friday. On Sunday she sugar level drop amazingly and accepted Christ in a conscious condition. A person who never know about prayer and Gospel accepted Christ. 

I still remember the first time when dad pray for her in early February. It was the most funniest prayer as she thought we were having conversation with her. The whole prayer progress she keep talking with us. 

An old fashion lady accepted Christ by 2 simple questions. "Would you like us to pray for healing ?" and "Jesus loves you, would you like to accept Him as your saviour? ". She even make the sinner prayer. So cute. Surely this is God's work. The next day she lost her ability to talk and follow by stroke. Can't even swallow and drink. On the next few days she was merely survive with tube. Her hand swollen and pain until come to the stage nurse tie her hand on bed as she keep pulling the tube. It was a heartache to see her live with no dignity. 

Again God answer my prayer. Last evening Jesus had brought her home. I should feel happy as God answer my prayer. But then it still a heartbroken fact when it really take place. 

I will always miss her voice and hug. Miss the moment she hold my hand whenever I see her. Telling me how she much she love me. Mum used to tell me, I'm grandma most beloved granddaughter. However this most beloved granddaughter don't really do much for her. Don't even treat her a meal. 

Thanks Lord, I feel loved at this moment. Thanks for the salvation and taking of her on behalf of me. 

One day, I shall meet you in heaven :}

Glory To Glory

MEEKNESS AND MAJESTY
IN HUMBLENESS YOU CAME DOWN AND RESCUED ME
YOU GAVE IT ALL UPON THE CROSS
AS AN OFFERING

YOU TRADED YOUR LIFE FOR ME
IN RIGHTEOUSNESS YOU POURED OUT YOUR LOVE SO FREE
AND NOW MY SOUL WILL WORSHIP YOU
AS AN OFFERING

WE COME INTO YOUR PRESENCE NOW IN AWE
CASTING ALL OUR CROWNS AT YOUR FEET
HOW WONDERFUL THE THINGS THAT YOU HAVE DONE
FOREVER YOU WILL REIGN GLORIOUS

BE LIFTED UP FROM GLORY TO GLORY TO GLORY
WE OFFER UP THE PRAISES THAT YOU DESERVE
YOU’RE CHANGING US FROM GLORY TO GLORY TO GLORY
OUR LIVES WILL SHINE BEFORE YOU AND SHOUT YOUR WORTH
YOU’RE GLORIOUS

It is a privileged to be chosen and loved by You.

Thank You for changing me from glory to glory to glory. 

Surely I will never like the process of molding, sometime I will just yield and grumbling as it came with Your silent and bad times.

Still my soul give thank for whatever it has been happened. Without them, I would never be who I am.

Grant me supernatural wisdom and understanding, to be able experience Your love neither in good nor bad times.

Daddy, be lifted up from glory to glory to glory. You deserve all my praise and worship.

Romans 8 :31-32

Teach me how to personalise your love..Besides acknowledge through word, I need to experience it as well.

Favor and grace that last a lifetime

There is a song in every silence
There is a dawn in every darkness
There is a hope in every pain
There is a spring in every winter
Even in doubt there is believing
Through every season Your are near

You satisfy our deepest hunger
You broke the bond and set us free
You gave us life eternally
Jesus the name that calms our fears
Only in You our sorrows cease
Your love has won and now we see

Oh Your favor and Your grace, Lord
Last a lifetime
Last a lifetime

Hallelujah
You are faithful
You are faithful 

Music speak when words fail. Daddy, thanks for creating music.
There are needs and changes in every seasons of life but Your love has won it all.

I'm amazed as i looked at the past...
Though there were countless of failure, mistake and regrets
Many were due to my own wisdom and prides
And yet it did not make You stop loving me

Through the past I've seen You carry me when I was weak
You hug me when I was hurt and doubt about Your love
You were my only listener when I was too proud to confess my real feeling to anyone,even to myself

In Your eye I'm the most precious one
Even sometime the situation does not make me feel that You were with me nor love me

Feeling can be deceiving but the truth can never be shaken
You did not spare Your son but gave Him up all for me
I was purchased by Your beloved son's blood
This is the most solid proof of Your love towards me

Forgive me when I lost my patience during waiting
Forgive me as I'm a short sighted
Forgive me as i only have little faith
And yet Your grace is sufficient for me
These incomprehension love and grace give me the boldness come into Your presence even when I failed

Now I have the confident to hope and to expect the most blessed future belong to me
Simply because Your favor and grace last a lifetime

I can expect good thing because Jesus is my righteousness :)

In the midst of curiosity and nervous. I really need a break. I can sense my palm and feet are sweating heavily. Whenever I came across this situation, the best thing to do is to pause everything and just focus on how much Jesus loves me. 

After taking almost two months of preparation, finally the day has come. Though based on the mathematics probability calculation, I should roughly know the figure. This is my first project ever since I "retired" as an engineer. The three God beloved children first project toward internet marketing world. I knew what we can do is very limited, there are so much factors which is out of control and we really need to depend on God.

Daddy, I dare not trust the sweetest frame of mathematics.I know You will surely bless us. Your gift is on the way..in the atmosphere of curiosity before open the gift.If possible, Jesus..I love to ask for 7 figures. 

I pray my next post will able to testify Your goodness and unceasing supply regardless how many figure we get. Thank you Jesus, finally my sweating stop. I pass the whole project unto Your hand. You are the real boss of whole project. Now we shall take a break and celebrate!!

Grace, what have you done?

Murdered for me on that cross

Accused in absence of wrong

My sin washed away in your blood

Too much to make sense of it all

I know that your love breaks my fall

The scandal of grace, you died in my place

So my soul will live

Chorus:

Oh to be like you

(To) Give all I have just to know you

Jesus, there's no one besides you

Forever the hope in my heart

Death, where is your sting?

Your power is as dead as my sin

The cross has taught me to live

In mercy, my heart now to sing

The day and it's trouble shall come

I know that your strength is enough

The scandal of grace, you died in my place

So my soul will live

"The scandal of grace, You died in my place". How my dear Jesus loves me. He loves me so much. His love is beyond word can describe, love as high from the earth to heaven, as far as east to west. Jesus is my righteousness. That is the core reason I can expect good things from God :)

7 “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.8 For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.

9 “Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10 Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 11 If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! 12 So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.   -- Quoted from Matthew 7: 7-12

                                                                                                                                                   AMEN!!

I'm not Chinese, I'm a Malaysian

For all these years, I have read numbers of racist articles, news and comments in facebook, youtube which a certain Malaysian call the Malaysian chinese as "babi" (pig), orang cina balik China (Chinese please go back to China), Kami tidak perlu cina (We don't need chinese), let's kill the chinese like slaughter pig, etc.Those sentence were written by certain leader, government officer and racist personal in their fb and youtube comment. I was angry however it does not affect the friendship with my Malay friends and colleague. Not all Malay are racist and I shall confess even some of Chinese are racist. Sadly, after 56 years of independence, people still judge a person based on skin colour. No wonder Malaysia cannot move far as it should be.

After 5 May 2013, the well known dirties election in Malaysia history by far, BN retain as our government for the next 5 years. Just within a day of Malaysia PM, he pin point the poor election result of his party is due to 'Chinese Tsunami". 80% of chinese supported opposition party. Is this a "chinese tsunami" or "Malaysian tsunami"? Chinese are only 25% of whole Malaysia population. Based on the election result it shows that 50.3% of Malaysian choose to support opposition. How can it be a chinese tsunami?

Somehow at this moment, I realize racist does not come from the people, it start from this ruling party.

There are concrete and solid prove which included videos and picture show that on election day, Election Commission and police force did not carry out their job as it should be. Money politic, millions of phantom voters, recount ballot paper without the presence of counting agents of each party, extra ballot paper with pre-marking was sent from outside to vote station under the protection of police, etc. In order to win, this ruling party issue citizenship to millions of foreign workers. Some even were paid to vote for their party. There are Chinese and Indian who stay in this country more than decades and yet they are not able to get Malaysia citizenship. They are not allow to vote and yet our government issue citizenship to foreign labors who work in Malaysia less than a month! Even our former PM, Tun Mahathir admit this fact to the media and he don't even think there is any problem to do this. Everything happen openly !

Our country future are determined by foreign workers? We paid tax for government to run the country and yet we don't even have the say? How can the people accept this kind of cheating and recognize this as our government? It this government really care the children of Malaysia? Or they just loves their own children? 

Corruption are not an new issue and in fact Malaysia is ranked 2nd out of 150 countries in Global Financial Integrity's (GFI) 2013 report. Government spending money like water. Over 15 years, Malaysia finance has been in persistent deficit condition. Malaysia are blessed with all natural resources. We have petroleum where Petronas was ranked top 12 of most profitable company in the world. Besides we are the top 3 country in the world exporting rubber and so to other natural resource such as palm oil, timber, etc. Budget deficit in Malaysia for 15 years, how could it be happen? They thought rakyat are "potato" meh?

Instead of enjoying these resources, people not only live in poverty but also need to bear the debts of the government. Idris Jala, the minister of Prime Minister's Department make a statement that if government continue to spend like this, Malaysia will bankrupt in 2019 or sooner. Even government minister make this kind of statement ! Will Malaysia bankrupt by 2019 ? I pray by God's grace it will not happen. Whether it will bankrupt in 2019 or not, for sure government is leading Malaysia to bankrupt destiny if they continue this kind of spending power. 

These irresponsible declaration of PM was follow by "Apa lagi orang cina mahu?" (What else do the Chinese want ?) in Utusan Malaysia. This statement really hurts me and I believe other Malaysian Chinese also feel the same. However, this hurt feeling did not stay long. I have seem many Malaysian Malay share their thought in Facebook. They accepted us as who we are. Many of them are ready to stand and defense for the Malaysian Chinese.

For the first time, I feel so belong to this country. None of us call ourselves as Malay, Chinese, Indian, Kadazan, etc. We address ourselves as Malaysian. This is the true and genuine 1 Malaysia. I guess the unity among all the races in Malaysia are the best gift from God in this General Election.

Well, I guess most of Malaysian are so upset with the election result and so do I. We are upset because the election did not carry out in a clean and fair manner. Nevertheless, many said the democratic of Malaysia is dead and I don't denied this fact as it is true that people lost their right in this General Election. However, this is not the end of Malaysia. I've seem a baby was born since 2008. She is the great patriotic awakening of Malaysian especially to the younger generation. This baby grow stronger and stronger as the time goes by. Little by little, when we are fully equip, democratic will be alive in Malaysia again.

Though the election result was out, but we will not let this unfair election come to the past easily. Instead of giving up, we will fight to the end and we will not be afraid as justice belong to God.

Who can against us when God is with us?

Thanks for turning this unfair election to weapon to unite all races in Malaysia. Dad, you are cool. I like Your style.

That's my God

World top 5 most extreme ritual

People in the world are so hunger for peace, protection, provision and health. All sort of rituals take place in order to please their gods and some even hurt themselves in order to be accepted by their gods.

Thanks to Jehovah, the One and Only Living God. Jesus was sent to die so that we can be accepted by God again. He was crucified, which is the most cruel, disgusting and disgraceful form of death in the world. 

Jesus gave His life so that we can have abundant life. He loves us. All we need to do is to believe and ask. 

Cool ? Yeah! That's my God !