Abraham vs Lot 1

Un-intentionally I was exposed much in the differences between Abraham and Lot. All were happen within 2 weeks, be it Sunday sermon or devotion. Maybe this is something God wants to tell me?! I guess so because I feel like standing on the ground of Lot instead of Abraham.

Abraham and Lot, both were righteous in God's eye. However both of them had a huge different ending! In Genesis 13: 8-15 

"So Abram said to Lot, “Please let there be no strife between you and me, nor between my herdsmen and your herdsmen, for we are brothers. 9“Is not the whole land before you? Please separate from me; if to the left, then I will go to the right; or if to the right, then I will go to the left.” 10Lot lifted up his eyes and saw all the valley of the Jordan, that it was well watered everywhere—this was before the LORD destroyed Sodom and Gomorrah—like the garden of the LORD, like the land of Egypt as you go to Zoar. 11So Lot chose for himself all the valley of the Jordan, and Lot journeyed eastward. Thus they separated from each other. 12Abram settled in the land of Canaan, while Lot settled in the cities of the valley, and moved his tents as far as Sodom. 13Now the men of Sodom were wicked exceedingly and sinners against the LORD." 

In the context, it shows how Abraham, the father of faith casting his trust in God. He knew God is with him and he knew his position in God's eye. Hence he can be so confident to ask Lot to choose the land. Only the man who is secure in God's love, able to be so confident to say so. He knew God is going to bless him regardless where he is. He trust God rather than his own eye or wisdom. 

The passage speaks to me that regardless which company i work with or my role as sales engineer, God is going to bless me because I'm His beloved daughter, which is my position in God's eye. 

Rest

Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them. Mark 11:24

God's word is powerful. A verse in scripture or just a word is more than enough to change the situation. 

Lord, I pray for sizeable projects to be closed by me within a month. I believe from this second onwards, You have gave me the sales of PDC and Ideal. And now, I shall rest in peace and next blog will speak about Your mighty works.

I asked this in Jesus' name. Amen !

Daddy, good night

The intimate relationship save me

After two months of cleaning and painting, this is my first time doing quite time with God in this house. Standing at balcony, enjoying the seaview, sunshine and breezing , I know this is something I desires for all these while. But am I happy with all these? All of sudden, I wonder. My heart is heavy.

Maybe this is due to my career. Frankly speaking, I'm tired and weary with all these wolfs. Is this what I need to encounter if I choose to stay in sales line? or is it because the country I live in? Even the politicians doing the same thing. I wonder is there any future in Malaysia if we continue tend to be ignorant. Rise up, Malaysian!!

I was told construction field in Malaysia is always "dirty". I thought I'm ready and bold enough to face it. But it seem like I over confident. Human will tend to fall when he/she lost the intimacy with God. From disagree to compromise and then give in. I think I in the boundary between compromise and give in. 

Sometime I wonder if I give in, maybe I will able to own another house and car. No need to struggle so much. But can I sleep in peace? Is Jesus is more precious than those things? Maybe this is the thing that hold me back. Maybe...But how long does this fact able to hold me? 

Surely, only when my relationship with God is intimate. Thank God today scripture, Psalm 103.

¹ Praise the LORD, my soul;    

all my inmost being, praise his holy name.

 ² Praise the LORD, my soul,    

and forget not all his benefits—

 ³ who forgives all your sins   

 and heals all your diseases, 

⁴ who redeems your life from the pit    

and crowns you with love and compassion, 

⁵ who satisfies your desires with good things 

   so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.

 ⁶ The LORD works righteousness 

   and justice for all the oppressed.

 ⁷ He made known his ways to Moses,    

his deeds to the people of Israel:

 ⁸ The LORD is compassionate and gracious,   

 slow to anger, abounding in love. 

⁹ He will not always accuse,    

nor will he harbor his anger forever; 

¹⁰ he does not treat us as our sins deserve    

or repay us according to our iniquities.

 ¹¹ For as high as the heavens are above the earth,    

so great is his love for those who fear him; 

¹² as far as the east is from the west, 

   so far has he removed our transgressions from us.

 ¹³ As a father has compassion on his children,    

so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him;

 ¹⁴ for he knows how we are formed,   

 he remembers that we are dust. 

¹⁵ The life of mortals is like grass,   

they flourish like a flower of the field; 

¹⁶ the wind blows over it and it is gone,   

 and its place remembers it no more.

 ¹⁷ But from everlasting to everlasting   

 the LORD’s love is with those who fear him,    

and his righteousness with their children’s children—

 ¹⁸ with those who keep his covenant 

   and remember to obey his precepts.

 ¹⁹ The LORD has established his throne in heaven, 

   and his kingdom rules over all.

 ²⁰ Praise the LORD, you his angels,    

you mighty ones who do his bidding,    

who obey his word.

 ²¹ Praise the LORD, all his heavenly hosts,    

you his servants who do his will. 

²² Praise the LORD, all his works 

   everywhere in his dominion.

   Praise the LORD, my soul.

The Lord's love is with those who fear Him, He who satisfies my desires with good things. His love grant me the confidence to live in His way. His love ensure me that He will take care all my needs and desires. My second house shall not come by satanic ways but His blessing.

I guess knowing His love and experiencing His love is totally a different thingy. The intimacy with God is the only way to experiencing His love.

not by satanic way !

" No one will ever satisfied with his income". and then he continue with these statements.- even if you work in corporate world, you can still have your own business. If you asking about beneficial interest, it is depend on how you see the thing. For example, I can own a company and fully run by my wife. I can become the one at the back stage and everything still is in my control. Sometime, you don't need to let your boss know everything.

I knew he is starring at me, observing my respond toward those statement. He was hinting me. Scary. How well can I hide in front of the "old fox"? He was testing whether we are in the same direction. In order to save myself, I give him a positive respond. 

After Joyce tender, I feel so lonely. She is the only person I can trust to. I salute her courage. She refuse  to walk the same direction with the "old fox". I guess he had gave her more than three times changes. And this is her ending. "Old fox" denied all her hard work in front of Vice President. He never gave her the changes to perform in the first place. Is VP blind as well? He knew this "old fox" did bribe, but somehow or rather he close his eye. Is he one of "old fox" new company partner? I wonder. 

Since when he became someone who are more powerful than God? Tan Sze-Lyn!! Wake up! This is a trick! You shouldn't be discourage or fearful. God is in front of you. He cares your career and financial. Indeed He is the provider of everything I need and He knew my desires. God is going to bless my financial. I will be rich by godly ways, effortless, and not by manipulating, human efforts, or satanic ways! Amen!

Thank God for a wonderful sister

Finally the wedding is over. Kind of "empty" honestly. Maybe the wedding is something I look forward for the past one year. So called long awaited wedding and also a big gathering with those friends. Well, during the past few days, I able to spend a very good time with a dear sis, Ewei. Another beautiful princess of God. Her eye can "kill"! She has a very beautiful eyes.

I remember we knew each other through a christian concert preparation. The first impression to her was "senior". I mean she looks like what a senior suppose to look like. Honestly I kind of scare of her as she seem serious. We don't have much contact during the preparation. Later we met in PBBC for a bible course. If not mistaken, there were only two girls joining the group. To my surprise, she is not as cool as she looks like. She knows how to smile and she can speak mandarin though she is a "banana". From that day onwards, I try to know her more, text her during her birthday.. and again to my surprise, a simple wishes text can make her so happy. 

I can't remember since when I din't treat her as my senior but a friend or a junior. I become the one who like to tease her and "bully" her. So fun to treat a senior as my junior. The funny part was she always be the one who taking care of me, that's the time I will see her a my big sister. Anyway, I thank God for giving me an opportunity to serve in CF. Though this, I able to know Lia and her, wonderful sisters.

Well, we seldom share about our life until she graduate. It was because she spent most of her time with her buddy and I spent most of my time with Lia. The situation change after her graduation. I receive an email from her. I guess she needs a spiritual partner as her buddy is a non believer. We share more this time. 

I'm glad that even until now, we are still able to share through phone though we are so far apart. She always be the one who encourages me especially during the fight between mum and dad. At that moment, I was so ready to accept the fact- divorce. Thank God for sending her when I have no one to turn to. The love, care and those encouragement book and CDs all the way from Singapore really touch me. Through the sermon CDs, mum changes! God has redeemed the marriage. Praise the Lord !!

The feeling of praying for her life partner getting stronger right after the wedding. Heartache as I see her travel every weekend to Sarawak due to her brother health. 

Lord. You love her more than anyone in the world. You know her struggles and You do feel the same as she feel. It is because of your unfailing love and finished work,we can see the healing is in the progress. Soon, Ewei's brother will be complete healed and even healthier than ever before. During the healing, Lord~ grant Ewei and her family strength, patience, understanding, good health, "bird economy" and hope. Bound them with Your great love where they will never feel weary and tired.

Lord, the Match Maker,  I ask for a kind, gentle, humble, thoughtful. mature and belong to the same faith guy as Ewei life partner. I pray he will be the one who able to lead and take care Ewei and her family. Besides, he always place Ewei as his priority, cherish her, respect her and love her with all his heart. The relationship will be the blessing to people around them and even their family. If Ewei really decide to choose striking purple as her wedding theme, Lord, grant me a gorgeous striking purple dress. I asked these in Jesus' name. Amen!

worry-free

²⁸ “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. ²⁹ Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. ³⁰For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”   Matthew 11:28-30

It always warm my heart when I read this. Again, it reminds me that Jesus cares. He cares all my struggles, difficulties and worries. Not only cares, He feels the same as I am. 

Who am I ? What so special about me? That He, the King of Kings would spend His precious time to listen, to care and to comfort me.

I was truly weary and burden for the past few weeks, maybe more than that...and I don't even want to think or spend a little bit time to discuss with God. I know I should but I'm just too tired. Anyway, I should not use tired as an excuse. 

The only time I pray is when I heading to office every morning. And I just took less than 10 minutes each time. Sometime less. Well, a simple prayer work. He do listen and He answered! You have touch my heart, Lord.

Thanks Lord, In You I shall rest even there are many issue/decision yet to be solved and make. Not only so, as You promise. all my burdens will be taken well by You. The only thing I need to do is to rest, follow Your leading and flow with You. And I will find all things fall into place. Free from distress, worry and anxiety. 

Dusa Dua Water Blow

After went through all the pictures, I shall rank this as the best "cover Page". Well, kind of lazy to write more about Bali but I guess picture will speak how beautiful and creative is our God. He is the best architect, making this place so nice.