Brunei Trip

At 7.30am, we took a bus from Miri to Kuala Belait which cost us about RM 13. At Sungai Tujuh border checkpoint, all the passengers are required to from a big bus to smaller air-cond bus.

Kuala Beilat

At Kuala Beilat, we have to take a boat ride to across the river. From there we got a bus to Seria which only cost B$ 1. After that, we have to change another bus to Bandar Seri Begawan.( B$ 6)

Book Store while we waiting for another bus

Chinese form about 15% of Brunei's Population.

Bandar Seri Begawan

The whole journey takes about 5 hours. Finally, we reached Brunei Capital- Bandar Seri Begawan.

First thing to do was to hunt some food as we were so hungry. After that, we just walked around the city.

Hotel's restaurant.

We found out quite easy to communicate with the local people as people here can speak good english.

Jerudong Park Entrance

In the evening, we visited Jerudong Park which is the largest and most expensive amusement park in South East Asia.

Previously there is free admission for Jerudong Park. However, due to various factors, we have to pay B$ 15 for one time admission fees.

B$ 15 is included all the ride, hence it is consider quite cheap to an amusement park. 

Night view in Jerudong Park

On the second day, we managed to get a "water taxi" to start out water village tour. Water Village is situated at the middle of Brunei River. About 10% of Brunei Population living in this village.

All the structures are on Brunei River

Shell Petrol Station

The Water Village is really made up of small villages linked together by more than 29,140 meters of foot-bridges, consisting of over 4200 structures including homes, mosques, restaurants, shops, a school, petrol station and a hospital.

Aiseh..Brunei Teminator :P

哦 神啊我要跟随你

感谢你所赐新生命
因你爱使我们聚集
若不因为你我怎能在这里
被赎的生命 交托于你
感谢你教导的真理
提醒我天天要舍已
让你在我生命中来管理
我心有神走过的痕迹
哦 神啊我要跟随你
赐我们全然向你的心
没有人事物能与你相比帮助我走得更坚定
哦 神啊 我要事奉你
用我被改变的生命
在每一日中彰显你神迹
使人看见 将荣耀给你

morning lifestyle..

Yes..after back to Penang for few days..eventually I manage to have my own time..I love Penang life especially in the morning..It was great and awesome as i drove to Batu Ferringhi and Gurney Drive for my "time out". 

Drew something on the sand and snap the picture..Haha..few people wondering and look atme with their strange eye?? or am i too sensitive?

Looking at the people jogging under the sunlight..Daddy playing with his child..mummy smiling at her family..children build their sand castle..What a childlike scenery..everything look so familiar in the picture book..closing my eye and listen to the wave..O..I love these so much..Life can be so simply and yet complicated..sound confused?huh?!

Aha..In one morning..I realise one of the reason I was put in Civil Engineering..I related things that around me with engineering concept! Sound like i'm a very rasional person..Cant believe it..i thought i'm a sensibility person..my geist gone after form 6 or after enter Uni?! By the way..i too enjoy to appreciate the nature with engineering concept..like slope stability..cohesiveness in sand..tension cracking..compaction..pore water pressure..all the geotechnic knowledge..but i miss out the beauty of the nature..Which created by our Heavenly Father..

As the mission trip date getting closer and closer..I'm a bit wander and afraid..but in the same time i'm grateful..what a self conflict girl..after read an article..I acknowledge that talk is cheap..if we grateful..shouldnt just say thank you but put our life as a living sacrifices..the act of thanksgiving..Hopefully I can put this in practice..

After the time out i went to Starbuck and have my drink..Sitting there alone and have my own time again..accessing internet..I like this type of life..so relax..Can i live like this after graduate? o no..cantimagine..Seeing graduated senior struggling with their job..yucks ! I do

super 'geng' God..

I'm the type of person that always misunderstanding God..This afternoon I received a call from the zhong qiu nite decoration leader..It recall me back to our last year CF Christmas Nite..At that period I was so frustrated for the decoration thing..I expect a christmas feeling decoration..But the outcome was not as i expected..it was a failure in my eye..and i so disappointed and told ar Lia that I will never in-charge decoration anymore..though i hv receive some positive comments about the decoration but it dint work as an encouragement to me..coz i thought they just want to comfort me and they dint know that it will be much more better if i plan well, if I can..etc..and I thought that God was not with me, that's why it turn up like this..izzit because my spiritual life so bad, dint pray earnestly or...I question Him for some period..After the call..I can sure that He was with me and He also did His part..He provided all the equipment that needed, wisdom to hang the snow flake, helpers..etc..Never thought that the way we hang the snow flake will impact someone that they ask us how to do it..How we get the equipment..as I found out these, I just want to say sorry and thank you..i paid so much attention on the outcome but never appreciate the process, the wisdom..that He had gave..Seriously,our God is the genius of genius..so 'geng' !.. King Solomon is the acknowledged wise man..God was the one who gave him wisdom..then God must be much more and more wiser than King Solomon..wow..cant imagine..

Lord, You are so cute !

Thank God, things that I dare not face, pretending..finally it over..After taking the first step, I found out that it is not as hard as I thought..But I hope no more this kind of thing happen again..haha..For this moment, I just want to thank God for this brother..and God is so cute, as we surrender everything to Him, He will take care of it..This morning as I look at the mirror..I saw something different..Because I laugh at the front of mirror by myself..Not because I'm crazy just because I found out that I have no angry with someone..Another brother in Christ that I thought I will never forgive..Though till today he dint say sorry about what has been happen..or maybe not even feel sorry about that..but amazingly there is no more anger in me..I dont know whether i really and truly forgive..but at least at this moment I decide to take the initiative to smile with him as we meet..As I found out that, I just wanna shout out in front of mirror that Lord, You are so cute! Without God's working, this matter is impossible..So good, can live without 'burden'..hee..

What will You do if You are in my place?

Recall back the question that grandpa asked in the first day of camp..If one day Jesus ask you : what do u think I am?..For this moment, Jesus is the one who knows everything, our past and also future. When making decision, I like to ask Jesus : What will You do if You are in my place?..will He say hold on,now is not the right time..or will He say just do it, the rest I will take care of it? Or will He say..so many posibilities?! But for sure, He will never say no need to face it, the problem will automatic be solved..Is the decision that I make same with Him if He is in my place? 


I thank God for this brother who use all his time, heart and strength to care about me. At once I was touched. However after sometime I found that I can't deceive myself. He deserve a better girl. How could I say tell this to this lovely brother without hurting him? I cannot be so selfish and continue give him false hope. Lord, teach me. 


At this point, I can only fully surrender to Him..May His will be done and not my will..

"For I know the plans I have for you",declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11.

Fathers..

Just finish watching a cantonese series drama-Fathers & Sons..It is a simple drama but i was so tourched by the love of the fathers towards their children. It remind me that in life there might have something that fathers have done for me secretly..but I never notice it..Things around me are too attractive and time past so fast ..and i just forget to stop for a moment just to say how much i appreciate and thank you..How great is our father's love..After camp i'm struggling to make a decision..I not sure whether i do it in the right time or right way..too much to consider..what will happen after i tell him..I just know if I continue to run away, there will be someone hurting..and I feel so bad about this..how to do it without hurting him and still remain as good friend? As I think about tomorrow, thing that I have to do..so uneasy..

Father,whatever consequences..may it in Your control..long to have a big hug and tell me that be courage, daughter..

Dear Lord..miss sis again..

Lord, so miss ar Lia .yearning the past..thank you for placing such a beautiful sis..i learn so much from her..I know if she is around campus..more juniors will be bless by her..Lord, take care of her, I know u will, rite? Give me the strength to continue the journey, may i do everything with sincere heart and with love.. so miss the time when we hang around, share to each other..

National Bridge Model Competition

Hmm..finally its over..joining the national bridge model competition two months ago..Our group (five of us) manage to enter second stage of the competition.Thus this two weeks plus we busy to prepare two model bridge,poster, movie presentation and landscape. During the preparation it was a tough time for me. Spend most of our time in doing the bridge model, sleep at very late night, skip lectures. Due to all of us have high demand in this competition, we re-do the bridge things again and again. Sometime i was so frustrated about the re-do things. Well, we manage to finish our stuff at the eleventh hour before we depart from our campus to Johor UTM. It was a 2days event on Tuesday and Wednesday.We depart by Monday 7am. Ha, we dint sleep on sunday nite..coz we only manage to finish all things at about 5am..hence, almost of the whole journey we sleep in bus. Haha..People like me, a bit tall..will suffer in the bus..We reach UTM at about 5pm..After that we direct went to the hall and start to arrange our landscape, poster....However, we found out that our landscape that Gavin did was too long..cant put on the table that they hv prepare for us. Due to gavin busy to improve our bridge structure so i was called by one of my group member to do another new landscape. Can feel that she put so high expectation on me again as she ask me not to worried about the material that i need. My job was to think and to decorate it nicely..so stress..last minutes what can i do..haha..thanks to my dear heavenly father..Idea just pop out one by one as i ask Him during the preparation.. haha..that night all of us only manage to sleep one hour coz busy to do the landscape..On the first day of the competition, each group have to go on the stage to present the bridge model..Before two hours of our turn to present,group members decide me to present it on stage..o..man..what a good surprise for me..even in school, i have to use at least a night to prepare..stress again..Thank God, i have present it camly and confidently..Group members so surprise and they thought that i was so enjoy to talk on the stage..haha..at that moment i just pretend la..just thought that He is with me and dint think for other things..Our bridge can support 5kg with only 0.79mm deflection, the weight of our bridge is 115gram..it was a good news to us as our deflection is d smallest among all. And our bridge weight is d fourth or fifth lightess. It was a hope for all of us..On the second day of competiton we wake up by 5am just to improve our landscape. It was because there will be 5 judges to come over booth by booth to give mark for landscape, multimedia presentation, poster, buildable, creativity, bridge structure..I pray for everything besides the justice of competition. Most of the UTM and Inti college breaks the rules..and it was so overt..a lot of participant was so angry with it, some of them even went to the "transfomer bridges" booth to challenge the ppl on the first day. One of the group even ask judge about that on second day. But the judge just smile and dint give any comment..As i knew they have break the rules on d first day,i thought the judge will take some action for the "transformer bridge",so i just concentrate to do my thing and dint give any respond to my coursemate as  they discuss about it..so sad..the judge did nothing..and all the transformer bridge won most of the prize..we lose..It was so easy to win as long as we dare to break the rules..Seriously,if have to use such way to win the prize, i rather choose to lose than win. I have exprience so much of His goodness along the whole process of our bridge preparation and competition.No regret to join the competition at least one of my wish have come true which is go johor..Hmm..have to back to normal life la..a lot of things..test, design, assignment are waving with me..

My dearest sis in christ..

so sad..nvr thought i so miss this sis so much until i saw her in convo..after she move her stuff bec to kluang..i cried for nights..during holiday, i try to put attention in other things..stop my mind to think that she is no longer around when i need some one to share..hv no more friend that i can talk to..try to make used that we can communicate thru email.sms..phone call..i thought i hv accept this fact..time past so fast especially during happy moment..Thank God that I hv 1 day to accompay her and her family..i should grateful for it..just cant stop crying as she left..cant control my tear..a bit doubt whether go singapore in dec..scare i will cry again when i left..haiz..really no mood to do anything..but my bridge cant wait ady..Lord, grant me the strength to continue my work..

Gastric's days..

Since wednesday nite, i have been suffer for gastric and XXX haha..better keep it secret..Room mate wanna send me to hospital but I refuse..coz i scare injection..Well, I din't have a good sleep on that nite. And the second day i skips all the class and lab. In the end, i agree to see doctor. Room mate won that battle..haha..So we went to see doctor coz yeeting(room mate) also encouter gastric problem..As i wait for the doctor, yeeting and Gavin ask me not to eat chocolate anymore..which mean they ask me to break out with MR.Chocolate..say bye bye to all my chocolate bar, hot chocolate drink, chocolate biscuit, chocolate jam?! so sad..Since we came together, so the nurse ask both us go in the doctor room together..the doctor very funny..laugh at me as he found out besides gastric and XXX, i also fever wor..the first thing that came in my mind was "fuk song pin"(FREE fever) for my gastric?! O..No..after that the doctor did'nt say anything, instead i ask the doctor what type of food that i cannot eat..Just to confirm, i ask the doctor whether i can eat chocolate..surprisingly..the doctor said CAN..Muahahaha..i turn my eye to yeeting and show funny face..And she was shocked with doctor answer..Muahahaha! this time i won..Now just hope for speedy recover..if not i have to walk in r-shape..like an old lady..and have to "cucuk" coz that doctor told me that if after few days still pain then have to "cucuk"..Thank God for the healing..now i feel better if compared with two days ago..and thank God for a good room mate..always remind me the "cucuk" thing as she knows that i cant control myself in taking spicy food..and thank God that i able to skip my lab..haha..first time i found out myself so enjoy the days even sick..remind me a sunday school song..That is joy joy joy ..dwell in my heart..dwell in my heart..

Faith

I like pastor Rowland sermon, though i was fishing during the sermon..Haha..but i did get part of the message of Pastor Rowland..And as we sang "How great is our God"..This song really challenge me..this time no more "will me"..it should be I want to praise Him even in a darkness moment in life..recently a lot of thing that wake me up..the event that impacted me the most is the 21 korean hostage..use to ask myself will i still sing praises to God if one day i'm in their situation? I hope i can..so from now, i should learn to trust Him in small thing first..If compared to others, what i encounter is just a small matter..shouldnt see that matter as big as God..and shouldnt believe the satan's lies that God doesnt care about me anymore..I know He love me..

May Your love and Your truth always protect me. Psalm 40:11

Questioning Him..

This morning was wake up by a call..from mummy..she told me that she was involved in an accident..had ram an old lady and the head of the lady was injured. Mummy was very panic and as waiting to dad she call me..I can head the noise over there and as dad arrived, the first thing he did was questioning mummy..Then mum ended the call. I was so sad as dad couldnt understand mum situation especially during this period. So i sms dad and ask him to treat mum my as he treat us..Hope that my word will not hurt dad..Sorry..This 2 weeks she just a bit stabil, finding a new hope that she get a job, plan to have fellowship with some christian friend..try to open herself to others..everything was so smooth..why such thing happen that might affect her emotion and thinking..really dont understand..Really hope to have a forgeful mind, wanna delete this question, feeling, problem..I know everything happen is in His plan and something good is hidden in HIs plan..But for this moment i just cant accept this..Pls..i have to concentrate in study as i have left behind alot ady..tan sze-lyn! think positively,k?..

still got to encounter..

This evening I speed in highway due to the late and un-organize time management.. For so long i dint speed in highway..normally i just drive 100km/h..hee..this evening increase to 130km/h..in fact i never drive as fast as this evening..thank God, still safety reach campus..hee..sometime it is feel good to speed,the feeling of free..challenge...i know that is a wrong thing to do as a christian..but..can i just dont care?!...Manage to attend the committee meeting..dint talk much during meeting..wanna bring out some issue, but i guess it is too sensitive to touch it..so i juz keep quite. After meeting i was so lost and down..Like burnt out, no spirit to any CF activities or plan. Just wanna be alone and away from any commiment that i have made to God. Recently too much social with ppl until i dont have my own private time. In the beginning, i choose to have this kind of life coz i really scare to be alone. When alone, i have to encounter some problem which will made me down and discourage..so, i try to forget about it by busyness, keep on telling lame joke with friend and laugh at it. It works,but just for a while..Dad, can i just skips these? Haiz..really need a reflection..

Encouragement from my heavenly dad..

Last nite i was cried to God for tiredness and worry. So worried to mummy and study. Nothing that i can help or do with mummy condition. Really dont have my own time to do the revision for my study as i hv serve in CF. There are so many commitment that i have make to God and myself in serving during holiday..This morning God comfort me by His word. He speak to me during my quite time. It was so amazed. Thank you Lord. I got the message and may i will choose the right way to go through these trial. Help me to walk throught these in victory and may these trial will make me better in my life. Lord, may my life will give glory to Your name. Help me to know who are You..the maker of heaven and the earth. Help me to know that You will watch over me and still care about my life. May i will rejoice in Your name,love and mercy even in these trial. Help me to grab the word of You so that i can go on my life with joy and love. Once again, thank for the encouragement, comfort and hope. Lord, You are my all in all.

Discouraging..

Discouraging..alot ppl told me that they cant cant join both fellowship because they are too tired and have no time for it. But what i saw was not, they would rather spend their time for drama than attend the fellowship. Seriously, me too will feel tired  to join both..maybe in their eyes, i'm super active,that will never feel tired for it..so sad when some of both felloswship commttee dint take out the step to understand each other. Some of them even look down and criticize the other fellowship with me. It really make me feel that they are not belong to Him, but belong to fellowship thought they said they are. Haiz..dont care la..i juz do my part..just focus to be a good example in my coursemate...but i now start to doubt that whether join da juan camp, since me too will tired and have no time. And in some people eyes, i belong to CF..

Exasperated by a brother...

This evening i angry with Hendrix due to his altitude. He and Jacob sudden came in my room and talked like a gangster. Due to his decision without inform us, each of us have to paid fifty two bucks. And now he came to my room and point the mistake to me and yeeting. I never met a friend like that. I dont mind to pay the amount but i really cant stand the way he talk to me. Few times i tried to smile with him when we saw each other ath school, sms him like i treat other coursemate and friends. But today onwards i wont do it again. This is my first time i so angry with a friend till i delete his contact number in my handset. After he left my house Jacob ask me not to angry and not to tell yeeting all about the conversation content between Hendrix and mine. I knew it was a wise way to do so in order to reduce their anger to each other. It was so hard for me not to said a single negative word of Hendrix. Because as i talk about hendrix's message with yeeting, it remind me his childish act. However after an hour i manage to calm down myself by a call from my mum. During the convesation with mum, something wake me up that why should i angry with this man? He is not worthy and not important in my live. He is not my family member and why should i angry and felt sad. I decided not to talk and forget this person. Next time as we see each other, he will be a stranger to me.
Sorry Lord.

Friend vs Sister

This morning back to Pabit Buntar. One word to describe - Hot. After finish cleaning and bath, i took a siesta. Initially plan to sleep 15minutes but i slept more than 2hours. Weather here is pretty hot that why i had a nightmare. In the dream i'm a hot tempered girl. Just because some certain reason, i broke two person spectacle purposely. But the funny part is i apologize to them and promise to remedy after done all eveil things. I was so regret and the first thing i did was sms Lia. I thought i can drop down all my feeling in the blog and need not share with another person. Haiz..maybe i still need a person. Just now Aaron came to my house to get Derrick thing. Even though Derrick havent back to campus but still have someone to help him willingly. Is like a family or brother that help each other. That feeling is different if Aaron is just Derrick friend. As i saw it, i was so touch and so miss that feeling. Last time i too have a sister wor. After came back, i found out is so hard to find a same gender friend here that i can talk to. So miss her, a least last time i still can find her for dinner, hang out. But now, like this evening really cant find someone(same gender) for dinner. Anyway this sem plan to pay more attention in study and caring. So busy..maybe dont have time for a friend too. Szelyn..Aza aza flighting! 

Thank You Lord.

After worry about two days, finally i manage to finish the task that given by Lia. Initially i was so worried about tha fax problem. Last time I never appreciate the fax machine at home..ha, use that fax machine as normal telephone,and i thought i will never use it hence dad gave away the fax machine to church. Should i say gave away? or return back to God, everything we have are belong to Him. These  two days i just pray about the fax since i thought the fax machine has been given to dad's friend. I check through internet whether fax service is available in penang. I was lost the idea to get the fax machine and the only way is to go Uncle Kew Beng's Office and fax. But i didnt know the way to his office moreover dad quite busy that he dont have time to show me the way. Thank God, in the evening mum told me that the fax machine was given to church and i can use it by inform aunty Foong Mei. Wow..is a great news for me. Somehow after settle this problem i worried about the staff in the usm. This is because they are not so friendly as i collected BM version letter on Wednesday. The most make me headache is whether the staff still remember what they have promise me. But everything seen redundantly for me to worry about. This morning I met two staff who are so friendly and willing to help. Everything just went smooth. After collect the letter i went to church for faxing. However after a few hour later Lia told me that her friend didnt get the fax. I was so worried and disappointed. Finally i still cant help her. Is like someone put his/her faith to me and i have broke it. Haiz..

About one hour later, i get a message from Lia. She told me that her friend just receive the fax. Haha..I dint break her faith to me. Thank God. He likes to give me the surprise at the eleventh hour. From this task I know God is working. Even though i did pray, I dint really expect something happen since I used to do something that hurts Him. Sorry Lord, and thank you for Your unfailling love and abundant grace.

A call from my dearest sis

Just end a call with a sis..It was a warm and reminder call. We chat everything we can. The funny part I found out was we will make an apointment with each other before we call. And I will make sure my spiritual life is good before I call her. It became a routine.


For so long I din't really chat with someone neither have mood to do so. When I at home, i will be a dumb and so enjoy to do my own thing, though I know it is unhealthy. However, I used to feel guilty in the late night as I din't really spend time with family during this holiday. Everytime I tell myself that I will spend time with them on the next day but always fail. Haiz..hopefully tomorrow I won't repeat the same mistake.

That is dying to self.

When you are forgotten, neglected, or purposely set at naught, and you don't sting or hurt with the oversight, but your heart is happy being counted worthy to suffer for Christ;

That is dying to self.

When your good is evil spoken of, when your wishes are crossed, your advice disregarded, your opinion ridiculed, and you refuse to let anger rise in your heart or even defend yourself, but take it all in patient, loving silence;

That is dying to self.

When you lovingly and patiently bear any disorder, any irregularity, any annoyance; when you can stand face to face with waste, folly, extravagance, spiritual insensibility, and endure it as Jesus did;

That is dying to self.

When you are content with any food, and offering, any raiment, any climate, any society, any solitude, any interruption by the will of God;

That is dying to self.

When you never care to refer to yourself in conversation or record your own good works or itch after commendation, when you can truly love to be unknown;

That is dying to self.

When you can see your brother prosper and have his needs met, and can honestly rejoice with him in spirit and feel no envy, nor question God, while your own needs are far greater and you are in desperate circumstances;

That is dying to self.

When you can receive correction and reproof from one of less stature than yourself and can humbly submit, inwardly as well as outwardly, finding no rebellion or resentment rising up within your heart;

That is dying to self.